Ji Qing choked a little, and she tried to calm down:
“Lu Tingshen, I like you. I started since I was a very young man. I know you knew it for a long time, but I just pretended not to know.
Only you in my world can only tolerate you, but you never have my place.
I know that maybe I can’t achieve what you want, but there is no one in this world who loves you more than me, but from this moment I chose to give up.
I waited for half my life, and I gave you all the golden time of a woman, and I don’t regret it because I gave it.
I hate how unbearable and humble I am now. A man who can’t get the love of a man but has to beg for it. This is not the real me.
Lu Tingshen, I hope you are the same as me, but I cannot love, because you and I are the same people, I want to love but don’t understand love.
You are destined to be alone, because you are not worthy of it, not worthy of any woman’s efforts for you, not worthy of being loved.”
Tears flashed across Ji Qing’s face, and only she understood this sad feeling.
She cursed him for the rest of his life but could not get it, and cursed him for the rest of his life.
She is not generous and is not a saint. She spent half her life betting on this man and lost, but she couldn’t do anything to bless him.
The moment Ji Qing turned around and left, she held back, her heart was already broken.
Lu Tingshen didn’t say anything until the end, this was the last thing he could do.
He looked at her left back, and no emotion was false.
They have been together from elementary school to university. She is his and Gu Jinyi’s young follower. She surrounds them every day and has long been accustomed to chatting.
She was right. Lu Tingshen had known that she liked him for a long time, but he pretended not to know.
Even if everyone calls her as Grandma Lu, he still doesn’t respond, because in this way he can neither hurt her nor maintain the status quo.
Lu Tingshen has no friends, so he can only say that he still cares about these two friends around him, one Gu Jin and the other Ji Qing.
They were like an iron triangle, accompanying him through his entire student days.
Ji Qing left, as if his youth had ended.
Why can’t men and women have family affection or friendship besides love? Can’t it be simpler?
Ji Qing was a very smart person, but she did the stupidest thing.
She had known that Lu Tingshen didn’t love her for a long time.
Lu Tingshen did not have a nominal girlfriend before, but there were not many women around him. Apart from pretending to turn a blind eye, she just couldn’t really face it, including childhood.
She drove away her childhoodI know how many women I have. The women before were greedy for vain and wanted to be Mrs. Lu Tingshen.
Apart from her vain-loving face, she had no love at all, only childhood, which she drove away without any effort.
In that kind childhood as little white rabbit, she could see that Lu Tingshen liked her at first sight.
It was before she lost her memory. They had dinner together, and Lu Tingshen’s eyes could not deceive her.
Ji Qing knew him so well that her every move could not escape her eyes.
Lu Tingshen likes her, but he doesn’t know it.
Lu Tingshen was too conceited. As she said, he didn’t know love either.
A selfish and conceited person like him does not deserve love.
The phone call easily drove away childhood, which she didn’t expect.
After all, it is not that easy to stay by Lu Tingshen’s side. She thought she would be entangled like those women.
But I left in childhood, so I left so simply.
Lu Tingshen seemed crazy during that period. She watched a man crazy for another woman with her own eyes. How much pain did her heart hurt?
Yes, it hurts very much, and the pain is the same as it is now, written one by one.
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